Months living Selleck = 9
Room number = 8228
Classes = 10
GPA = 3.5
Credit hours completed = 33
Hours worked per week = 10ish
The average number of 112 students that walk into the office confused = 4 per 2 hour shift
Average hours of sleep per night = 6 hours
Average length of naptime = 3 hours
Number of months Caleb and I have been dating = EIGHTEEN
Cost to fill up the Sable = 30 dollars
Quarters needed to vacuum = 8
Days of livin in the Island = 23
Days of living at Timberlake = 66
Everything? = Priceless

Running and Tripping

Sometimes I feel really lucky.

Right now, I'm sitting in the new "Multi-cultural Center" at UNL, watching the clouds get darker and darker. It seems a storm is brewing, with the occasional crack of lightning. There is still a light from the sun though, glimmering through the clouds like artwork.

For the past few months, I haven't really blogged at all...not to say that I haven't tried. I probably have about 5 drafts saved in Facebook alone. Most of them either start out winy, or I'm trying to philosophical/intelligent/

all that lame jazz. I just haven't had any specific messages that I've wanted to let out to the world...By the way, the key word in that last statement was "I".

Ya know, being the cool college girl that I am (heh), I tend to focus on myself a lot. Not that focusing on yourself every once in awhile is a bad thing...but you see, I'm actually prone to dumb actions thanks to my sinful nature. Like the other day...I got a test grade back, that brought one of my classes down to a B. You know what I did? Name calling. Evil bad stupid name calling to myself. I also let my desires get the best of me. Sadly, that includes the judgments of others, who you know what? I don't know. Those people who I judge? They don't deserve that. Dumb dumb dumb. Oh yeah...dumb.

The list could really go on for awhile...and the fact that I'm forgiven for all of my crap makes me gaze in awe.

Like, fall on my feet, in awe.

My incredible boyfriend Caleb bought me the newest Rocket Summer CD. Why? He's awesome, and he's fine with me drooling over his vocals. One of my favorite new songs on it is called "I Need a Break, But I'd rather have a Breakthrough"...

I need a break, but I'd rather have a breakthrough
I'm losing my sleep running after you
But still, I'd rather have a breakthrough
So I don't stop making moves
I need a break, but I'd rather have a breakthrough
I'm tripping on hurdles running after you
But I can see it right at my fingertips
Isn't it classic?

The clouds are starting to turn orange.

All of this good music blasting through my earbuds, with the sounds of rain pouring in the background makes me see a spiritual application in all of this.

The words that we are promised, the words that we don't hear, the feelings and emotions that we feel, will let us down. It breaks my heart to be let down so often, and it hurts me even more when I let myself down. I want to portray this perfect, Godly life so much...but that's hard to do when you forgot about the one who is truly in charge: Jesus Christ.

Like the sunlight streaming in through the clouds of darkness...Jesus is our breakthrough. Our lives here on Earth can be, just, so...heart-breaking. Coincidentally, God's here to mend that rip...He is always there to comfort us when the thunder in our lives are brewing. Everything that He is, is in us.

Let me repeat that.

That love that HE has, is in YOU, and ME! Um, yeah.

So, friends, if you read to the end of this little ramble on the GREAT love of Jesus...well, I hope you can see just how wonderful you truly are. Please don't focus on the thunder and lightning of whatever storm you're living in...the light will overcome it. The darkness may look like it'll overtake everything...but trust me. It won't. I have faith.

His love is at our fingertips, and it'll go on FOREVER.

Song of Solomon 8:6
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.

-Kaylee

Intricate

You know what never ceases to amaze me? How beautiful this world is. Right now, I'm sitting in a parking lot at UNL waiting for Caleb...and the scenery around me is gorgeous. There's 20 story buildings all around, light posts that look like they're out of a 50's movie, and glimmering snow. God is so simple, yet intricate in His artwork.


Remember to always stop and smell the flowers.


-Kaylee

Thoughts of the Found

So, once upon a time, I was able to blog as much as I want, and the 17 credit hours of homework didn't interrupt that precious time. Normally, I would try to give a recap after a long period of time...but I don't believe in living in the past....With growth, comes maturity..... I've been thinking lately about how I can change my attitude and demeanor for the glory of God. Here's what He's given me...so far.

On February 2nd, I was able to be at my grandfather's bedside as he went to Heaven. As a child, I never in my wildest dreams, thought that I would be blessed enough to be with Les as his life ended. I knew that he had been sick, and that he wasn't going to be around for much longer...but God planned to have me...me, be there to witness the greatest moment of Les's life....His last. I will never be fully able to express what I felt watching the whole experience that night. I can only say that we are nothing...without Christ.

I have been blessed with an incredible boyfriend. Caleb and I have been together 15 months (as of February 8th)...He is a gracious, Godly man, and I love him because he puts his faith before me...and because of that, he respects me. I like to call this stage of our relationship "pre-marriage" training. I hope to always be there for him, no matter what. Through pain, through anger, through hurt feelings. Love never fails.

Speaking of which. Thank goodness for family. I have no idea what I would do without them and their support. Actually, I do know. I'd just cry a lot.

I have the most wonderful friends in the world.



I'll try to be back sooner than later.

-Kaylee

Just a Few Months Later

I might have forgotten about my blogger...heh...Anyway, a few months have gone by since my last post...

Since then I've...

• Continued to date my best friend Caleb for over a year! (as of November 8th)
• Started my college journey at UNL
• Survived a summer on staff at Timberlake (thank you Jesus!)
  
• Met a ton of new acquaintances and friends...I like the friends better...

Caleb and I celebrated our one year on November 8th. We started off the day by performing in a reading at Lincoln Berean together...that was pretty sweet. We did many random things in the afternoon including getting haircuts, having lunch at Amigos with some of the staff, and going to "Paint Yourself Silly"...The night however was much more romantic. : ) Our friend Phil took some professional photos for us, and we had dinner at this little Italian restaurant in the Haymarket. And then we exchanged our letters...and had our first kiss again. (We stopped for a month to cherish how special that is)...Mark my words, I am going to marry that boy!

I started college too. I'm attending a miniscule college called the University of Nebraska Lincoln...There are a lot of things I like about college and UNL. I love feeling independent and free from the policies that high school used to restrain me. I love having ice cream for lunch, and then going to the Rec center and feeling accomplished after 20 minutes on the elptical. I love having a theatre coach that truly cares about me enough to tell me when I suck, and how I can get better. I really like my roommate a lot as well; she's a Christian, she's super nice, and she's the kind of person who I would want to be friends with anyway. I feel accepted by her.

However, I wish I felt that way by most of the other girls in my hall. It's not the greatest feeling in the world to see all of the messages on your door being for your roommate, having people walk into your room and completely ignore your presense, and it ESPECIALLY doesn't feel good when people call you by the wrong name...It's been 4 months. That's acceptable maybe for the first 3 weeks. : / That's been a struggle for me. As a Christian woman, I want to feel like I'm able to fellowship with others...but when they don't feel the same about you...what are you supposed to do?

Also, when your best friend from high school is pregnant, and you hear about it three months later...that also sends quite the head blow. It makes you realize how you much you grow apart from someone in a few short months.

That's why I'm thankful for my Timberlake staff friends. I know God gave me the family that I've always dreamed about with them. They're always a phone call, or walk away.

Speaking of which...I miss Timberlake. I've come to the realization that I won't be able to be a cabin leader next summer...but there is hope that I might be on activity staff or the nurse. My dream though, is to be the JCL director. I would love the opportunity to be a spirtual leader for the JCLs...I love those crazy high schoolers. And I think if I was given a summer to help them grow in their walk with God...oh man, some wonderful things would happen. I can only pray for the future.

Hebrews 11:1
--Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.--

Hello Cruel World

Something that God has defiently been showing me lately is that this dear, sweet, little world of ours is quite cruel. The people that we know, the places that we spend our time at, the people who love us the most, can be the things that can break us down and hurt us the most. This past week has not been healthy for me at all mentally. The things that people can say, and the punches they can throw, can really make a beautiful person feel ugly. And through that pain that we suffer from...we grow...and we see the other things in our life that mean the most to us in a whole new light. A family in Him emerges. Christ is always there for us through the rain...He is the sunshine, peaking through the storm, saying "Here I am, my love, let me wisk you away out of that cold storm, and you can bask in my warmth." This pre-graduation storm that Satan's kept over my head is no match for the SON.