My Love Language

In my premarital sessions, we've been going through the book The Five Love Languages.  The book focuses on five different areas of love, that everyone can identify with at least one major category.  Out of the five (words of affirmation, quality time, receiving gifts, acts of service, and physical touch), I would definitely consider myself a words of affirmation girl, no doubt.

I love to complement.
I love to express myself through words.

For the longest time, I've considered myself an extrovert.  But, in this last year, I've realized that naturally, I am not that.  I really dislike large groups of people.  I really dislike face-value conversation.  I like honest and deep conversation...and I like being alone.

I think this mixture has been my downfall.  I've struggled with loneliness a lot since getting engaged.  I don't have many friends in serious relationships, and I've felt distanced from a lot of single ones.  Maybe it's all in my head.  But I don't think it truly is. I've entered a new stage in my life...one that 95% of 19 and 20 year olds haven't experienced the blessing of, yet.  My biggest fear with that is that it would make me seem unapproachable.  I don't want that, at all.  I just want honest communication and love.

I am so grateful for the things that God has blessed me with these last few months.  My relationship with my fiancé is incredible, and just continues to leave me in awe.  Five months from TODAY, I will be his wife.  I know that the markers in my life that I will pass through on my journey as a fiance', wife, mother, sister, friend, will be cake with Caleb by my side.

For you are a people holy to the Lord your God. Out of all the peoples on the face of the earth, the Lord has chosen you to be his treasured possession.

Deuteronomy 14:2

Soon and Very Soon...

Time certainly flies by, doesn't it?  I am thrilled knowing that in 154 days, I will no longer be called Miss Meyer, but Mrs. Sueverkruepp.  (See-ver-croop, for those who can't pronounce it...hah)...

Honestly, I truly cannot express into words my excitement for this time in my life right now.  I love school, but just earning my degree seems almost a little obsolete...while still living on campus seems way obsolete.  I'm thankful that I have a place to stay while I'm here in Lincoln...but it's a struggle for me right now.  Last night in particular, I woke up at 3am, due to people yelling literally 15 feet from my room.  This year, I've truly realized how different I am from many other members of the UNL class of 2013.

I've never tasted alcohol.
I'm saving myself for my husband.
I value my faith in Jesus...my belief is not "Sunday only"...

But it's okay.  Because Christ is in control of my life.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart 
and lean not on your own understanding; 
in all your ways submit to him, 
and he will make your paths straight.

Since I haven't blogged since May.......Wowwie wow Kaylee!

I realized earlier, that I have not posted an update on here since MAY!  Let me tell you, Blogger, a lot of wonderful things have happened in my life since then...So, in honor of Thanksgiving, I have decided to post my annual "thankful" list...Hopefully it can catch up of some of the tidbits of my daily existence.  In no particular order...(minus the first two posts)...I present my list of love and appreciate for the simple things around me, that make this life, oh so good.

1.  First and foremost, Jesus Christ tops my list of amazement.  The following things that I will list, are simply a representation of the things that He has blessed me with this past year.  Christ will always ALWAYS remain the one in control of my life...because let's face it, I don't have any control of it anyway.  The Lord is so simply good to His children, His LOVE will endure for ever! 

2.  This September, I became ENGAGED to the most wonderful man I have ever met.  Caleb is the epitome of everything that I could of ever dreamed about in a husband, and SOOO much more.  And just thinking about seven months from today (June 25, 2011) brings tears of joy to my eyes. I don't even care that my future full name won't fit completely in a scan-tron, I am so excited, and thankful, and blessed, and enthralled to be Mrs. Kaylee Sueverkruepp.  (For those of you who don't know how to pronounce it, it's SEE-VER-CREW-OOP)

3.  I am thankful that I have a very supportive, and loving family.  They are ALWAYS there for me, whether I have bronchitis and a sinus infection, or if I need to girl talk about wedding flowers (my dad, not so much). 

4.  The Family Science department at UNL.  Since switching my major, I feel like I have been integrated into the major, and I feel apart of the "family".  And I'm only three classes deep!

5.  Always having my getaway college from college at WSC!  I love and appreciate the people there so much. 

6.  Enough said... http://www.theknot.com

7.  Jessie Traudt, Alison Willis, Meghan Vilter, Kate Michael, Janelle Forsman, and Missy Brown

8.  My little red Schwinn that gets me around everywhere on campus.  I also love the fact that whenever I'm at a bike rack with someone else, I always get complements on how cute it is.  hah

9.  The Johnny Carson Office, and all of the incredible people who work there. 

10.  White popcorn and diet cherry 7up. 

11.  My grandma's stuffing on Thanksgiving. 

12.  Youtube pilates videos, so I don't have to go out and buy my own DVD. 

13.  NuVibe smoothies.

14.  Erick Sueverkruepp, and how he is the giggliest little baby I think I've ever met.  (And he'll offically be my nephew in seven months!)

15.  How cheap wedding bubbles are to order.  48 for 8 dollars!

16.  All of the campers at Timberlake that have accepted Christ for the first time for the past two years.  Those boards never cease to amaze me about God's Almighty power. 

17.  Jesus revealing this summer at Timberlake, that Caleb and I were ready to get married to one another, and that it was apart of HIS plan. 

18.  Warren Buffett's heart and generosity. 

19.  Skim Carmel Apple Chai Tea Lattes.

20.  17 current credit hours that are getting demolished by yours truly. 

21.  Next semester's break of 12 credit hours. 

22.  The Timberlake staff of 09' and 10'.  : )

23.  My dogs, Molly Meyer, Max Meyer, and Maddy Meyer.  But especially Max.  : )

24.  Cuddling

25.  Scanner-guns!

There are so many more things that I am thankful for.  Consider this a glimpse. 

"Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.
For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations."
-Psalm 100:4-5

Months living Selleck = 9
Room number = 8228
Classes = 10
GPA = 3.5
Credit hours completed = 33
Hours worked per week = 10ish
The average number of 112 students that walk into the office confused = 4 per 2 hour shift
Average hours of sleep per night = 6 hours
Average length of naptime = 3 hours
Number of months Caleb and I have been dating = EIGHTEEN
Cost to fill up the Sable = 30 dollars
Quarters needed to vacuum = 8
Days of livin in the Island = 23
Days of living at Timberlake = 66
Everything? = Priceless

Running and Tripping

Sometimes I feel really lucky.

Right now, I'm sitting in the new "Multi-cultural Center" at UNL, watching the clouds get darker and darker. It seems a storm is brewing, with the occasional crack of lightning. There is still a light from the sun though, glimmering through the clouds like artwork.

For the past few months, I haven't really blogged at all...not to say that I haven't tried. I probably have about 5 drafts saved in Facebook alone. Most of them either start out winy, or I'm trying to philosophical/intelligent/

all that lame jazz. I just haven't had any specific messages that I've wanted to let out to the world...By the way, the key word in that last statement was "I".

Ya know, being the cool college girl that I am (heh), I tend to focus on myself a lot. Not that focusing on yourself every once in awhile is a bad thing...but you see, I'm actually prone to dumb actions thanks to my sinful nature. Like the other day...I got a test grade back, that brought one of my classes down to a B. You know what I did? Name calling. Evil bad stupid name calling to myself. I also let my desires get the best of me. Sadly, that includes the judgments of others, who you know what? I don't know. Those people who I judge? They don't deserve that. Dumb dumb dumb. Oh yeah...dumb.

The list could really go on for awhile...and the fact that I'm forgiven for all of my crap makes me gaze in awe.

Like, fall on my feet, in awe.

My incredible boyfriend Caleb bought me the newest Rocket Summer CD. Why? He's awesome, and he's fine with me drooling over his vocals. One of my favorite new songs on it is called "I Need a Break, But I'd rather have a Breakthrough"...

I need a break, but I'd rather have a breakthrough
I'm losing my sleep running after you
But still, I'd rather have a breakthrough
So I don't stop making moves
I need a break, but I'd rather have a breakthrough
I'm tripping on hurdles running after you
But I can see it right at my fingertips
Isn't it classic?

The clouds are starting to turn orange.

All of this good music blasting through my earbuds, with the sounds of rain pouring in the background makes me see a spiritual application in all of this.

The words that we are promised, the words that we don't hear, the feelings and emotions that we feel, will let us down. It breaks my heart to be let down so often, and it hurts me even more when I let myself down. I want to portray this perfect, Godly life so much...but that's hard to do when you forgot about the one who is truly in charge: Jesus Christ.

Like the sunlight streaming in through the clouds of darkness...Jesus is our breakthrough. Our lives here on Earth can be, just, so...heart-breaking. Coincidentally, God's here to mend that rip...He is always there to comfort us when the thunder in our lives are brewing. Everything that He is, is in us.

Let me repeat that.

That love that HE has, is in YOU, and ME! Um, yeah.

So, friends, if you read to the end of this little ramble on the GREAT love of Jesus...well, I hope you can see just how wonderful you truly are. Please don't focus on the thunder and lightning of whatever storm you're living in...the light will overcome it. The darkness may look like it'll overtake everything...but trust me. It won't. I have faith.

His love is at our fingertips, and it'll go on FOREVER.

Song of Solomon 8:6
Place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal on your arm; for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave. It burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame.

-Kaylee

Intricate

You know what never ceases to amaze me? How beautiful this world is. Right now, I'm sitting in a parking lot at UNL waiting for Caleb...and the scenery around me is gorgeous. There's 20 story buildings all around, light posts that look like they're out of a 50's movie, and glimmering snow. God is so simple, yet intricate in His artwork.


Remember to always stop and smell the flowers.


-Kaylee

Thoughts of the Found

So, once upon a time, I was able to blog as much as I want, and the 17 credit hours of homework didn't interrupt that precious time. Normally, I would try to give a recap after a long period of time...but I don't believe in living in the past....With growth, comes maturity..... I've been thinking lately about how I can change my attitude and demeanor for the glory of God. Here's what He's given me...so far.

On February 2nd, I was able to be at my grandfather's bedside as he went to Heaven. As a child, I never in my wildest dreams, thought that I would be blessed enough to be with Les as his life ended. I knew that he had been sick, and that he wasn't going to be around for much longer...but God planned to have me...me, be there to witness the greatest moment of Les's life....His last. I will never be fully able to express what I felt watching the whole experience that night. I can only say that we are nothing...without Christ.

I have been blessed with an incredible boyfriend. Caleb and I have been together 15 months (as of February 8th)...He is a gracious, Godly man, and I love him because he puts his faith before me...and because of that, he respects me. I like to call this stage of our relationship "pre-marriage" training. I hope to always be there for him, no matter what. Through pain, through anger, through hurt feelings. Love never fails.

Speaking of which. Thank goodness for family. I have no idea what I would do without them and their support. Actually, I do know. I'd just cry a lot.

I have the most wonderful friends in the world.



I'll try to be back sooner than later.

-Kaylee