Just a Few Months Later

I might have forgotten about my blogger...heh...Anyway, a few months have gone by since my last post...

Since then I've...

• Continued to date my best friend Caleb for over a year! (as of November 8th)
• Started my college journey at UNL
• Survived a summer on staff at Timberlake (thank you Jesus!)
  
• Met a ton of new acquaintances and friends...I like the friends better...

Caleb and I celebrated our one year on November 8th. We started off the day by performing in a reading at Lincoln Berean together...that was pretty sweet. We did many random things in the afternoon including getting haircuts, having lunch at Amigos with some of the staff, and going to "Paint Yourself Silly"...The night however was much more romantic. : ) Our friend Phil took some professional photos for us, and we had dinner at this little Italian restaurant in the Haymarket. And then we exchanged our letters...and had our first kiss again. (We stopped for a month to cherish how special that is)...Mark my words, I am going to marry that boy!

I started college too. I'm attending a miniscule college called the University of Nebraska Lincoln...There are a lot of things I like about college and UNL. I love feeling independent and free from the policies that high school used to restrain me. I love having ice cream for lunch, and then going to the Rec center and feeling accomplished after 20 minutes on the elptical. I love having a theatre coach that truly cares about me enough to tell me when I suck, and how I can get better. I really like my roommate a lot as well; she's a Christian, she's super nice, and she's the kind of person who I would want to be friends with anyway. I feel accepted by her.

However, I wish I felt that way by most of the other girls in my hall. It's not the greatest feeling in the world to see all of the messages on your door being for your roommate, having people walk into your room and completely ignore your presense, and it ESPECIALLY doesn't feel good when people call you by the wrong name...It's been 4 months. That's acceptable maybe for the first 3 weeks. : / That's been a struggle for me. As a Christian woman, I want to feel like I'm able to fellowship with others...but when they don't feel the same about you...what are you supposed to do?

Also, when your best friend from high school is pregnant, and you hear about it three months later...that also sends quite the head blow. It makes you realize how you much you grow apart from someone in a few short months.

That's why I'm thankful for my Timberlake staff friends. I know God gave me the family that I've always dreamed about with them. They're always a phone call, or walk away.

Speaking of which...I miss Timberlake. I've come to the realization that I won't be able to be a cabin leader next summer...but there is hope that I might be on activity staff or the nurse. My dream though, is to be the JCL director. I would love the opportunity to be a spirtual leader for the JCLs...I love those crazy high schoolers. And I think if I was given a summer to help them grow in their walk with God...oh man, some wonderful things would happen. I can only pray for the future.

Hebrews 11:1
--Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.--

Hello Cruel World

Something that God has defiently been showing me lately is that this dear, sweet, little world of ours is quite cruel. The people that we know, the places that we spend our time at, the people who love us the most, can be the things that can break us down and hurt us the most. This past week has not been healthy for me at all mentally. The things that people can say, and the punches they can throw, can really make a beautiful person feel ugly. And through that pain that we suffer from...we grow...and we see the other things in our life that mean the most to us in a whole new light. A family in Him emerges. Christ is always there for us through the rain...He is the sunshine, peaking through the storm, saying "Here I am, my love, let me wisk you away out of that cold storm, and you can bask in my warmth." This pre-graduation storm that Satan's kept over my head is no match for the SON.